When I was asked to write something for this blog I was stumped. I haven’t written much in recent years. I remember from the movie The Razor’s Edge that the main character had gone to Tibet seeking enlightenment. The guru had sent him to spend some time alone in a hut with several holy books. After weeks he returned to the main monastery and proclaimed that he now knew what was in all the holy books of the world…WORDS! And the best use he had found for these books was for starting a fire. So, what is the use for more words? At any rate, for whatever value they might have, here are some more…

Recently I posted on Facebook a quotation from Anthony deMello which begins

Spirituality means waking up. Most people, even though they don’t know it, are asleep…..

The comments I got were laughable. journeyThe vast majority agreed and, more or less, claimed to be awake. If one were truly awake, to whom would he proclaim it? Unfortunately, so many students of A Course in Miracles I have met over the years think that some sort of ability to massage and postulate the concepts of ACIM are evidence of their awakening.

Several years ago I wrote a long essay titled ‘Salvation is Undoing’ (see link below) which you might wish to peruse. In this essay I outline all the things that must be undone. However, all other considerations notwithstanding, salvation (aka Atonement, enlightenment, the happy dream, awakening) is simply a matter of the end of me, the separate, personal identity. When there is no more me, there is only I, everywhere, the eternal subject without an object. Moses heard it from the burning bush, “Eyeh asher eyeh”, “I am what I am.”

There is no gain whatsoever to the me from awakening (aka Atonement, Salvation, etc.) and that is why there is so much resistance. No more ownership, no more accomplishments, no more competition, no more acquiring, just Being.

The search for truth is but the honest searching out of everything that interferes with truth. A Course in Miracles (T.14.VII.2.1)

And, stripped down to its ultimate simplicity, there is only one thing that interferes with truth – the concept of separate, personal identity…me.

I recall many years ago facilitating A Course in Miracles study group in Phoenix, Arizona, in which we touched on these ideas. The shock and horror of those present was palpable. I realized that the ego (me) would rather die than give up its claim to separate identity. Until one is ready to face the fact that he/she (as one imagines him/herself to be) is the only real block to Truth, there is no real possibility of awakening. Not just some of the nastier psychological tendencies, but the whole magilla, good, bad, ugly or otherwise. One thing for certain – A Course in Miracles is NOT about becoming a better me. The whole idea of ‘self-improvement’ is but another distraction, another delaying tactic. Meaningless ideas, like Attitudinal Healing, for example, are great for selling books and seminars, but they have nothing to do with the real course in miracles. Salvation is neither an accomplishment nor an achievement. It is a gift, already given, waiting to be received.

The idea of being an awakened being amongst a world of unenlightened ones is indeed appealing. The specialness of specialness would be to be a Buddha among the masses. To be able to wow the crowd with miracles. Or so says the ego, the me.

So, what to do? Surrender! Where does this undoing lead? First, to…

I do not know the thing I am, and therefore do not know what I am doing, where I am, or how to look upon the world or on myself. A Course in Miracles (T.31.V.17.7)

This is the letting go (of the sense of personal identity). And then,

Yet in this learning is salvation born. And What you are will tell you of Itself.

You need do nothing. In fact, all your doing is but interference.

Marianne Williamson once said that A Course in Miracles is a course in radical relaxation. And so it is. There is nothing to do, just relax and let go…of me.


daan dehn (“Just another traveler on the road to Kingdom come.” Harry Chapin)

Link to Essay
“Salvation is Undoing”

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